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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo

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Does it matter who you are?
Every thing my heart desires.
Always seems to fall to fire.
Sometime tho when I wish twice.
It seems as tho it falls to ice.

"You can make your dreams come true."
Does this statement work for you?
The harder I try the more I fail.
Never found my happy tale.
Yet I move on and try again.
But my vigor is waining thin.

And they lived happily ever after.
Has this story ever mattered.
The knight that slays the dragon wins.
But whatever happend to those other men?
The ones who fought the dragon and lost.
They tried to save her but at what cost?

Happy endings, have you found y

He Weeps With UsI never understood how, people pray for love?
They shed their tears and weep, for help from up above.

In matters of the heart, God is just like us all.
For he makes no one love, he cannot make them fall.

He loves just the same, even though he cannot help us.
He weeps when you shed your tears, because he is so selfless.

So when you pray for love, keep this thought in mind.
In matters of the heart, no help shall you find.

I mean this in no anger, I say this with no hate.
For if god could make us love him, he would save us from our fate.

Our free will is a gift, the choice's are our own.
I hope you take some wisdom, from these words

And Always There's The SunI'm dying inside, this pain is slowly destroying me.
Yet each day the sun comes up, just as bright as ever.
A cancer is what our love has become, its killing me to feel.
Yet I do feel the pain, it lets me know im alive and this is real.

I look up from the ground, and think to myself "I tried"
The tears they fall to the ground, now to them I look.
All my friends tell me, "your better off", "move on"
And like always as I wake up, the sun still rises at dawn.

All alone in my own mind, am I better off dead I wonder.
The sun goes down, as it does every single day of life.
My friends take me to the bar, I drag myself down the street.
Jus

Really?....When I left in such graceI leave in such grace.
And you show such anger.
I fake a smile upon my face.
You look upon me like a stranger.

I take the high road for the view.
And you take the one underground.
I try to remember good times with you.
You pray I won't make a sound.

Even knowing what you did.
I am able to move on.
How could you hope it to be hid.
Your love was just a con.

My hands were soft as silk.
Moving on I am.
Our love you have killed.
Into reality you've been slammed.

After what you put me through.
I'm happy and glad to be free.
I care no more for you.
One person matters that is me.

~Adam Matthews

No CompanionTo live for lust, that is an easy life.
How easy it is, to lie, and cause strife.
To say the words, she longs to hear.
To pretend your so close, yet nowhere near.

This task seems hard to some, yet easy to those who hate it.
To have "game" is easy, simply don't want it.
To want something more, yet it be out of your reach.
To try and move on, and "game" be all you can teach.

But do what you do, and live what you know.
Sad to live your life, with nothing but woes.
Sad how one mans chore, is another mans easy day.
And both still be wanting, in your own different way.

Funny tho too, how some would long for that.
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True lies

by *WarriorPoetAdam, Nov 13, 2012, 10:49:19 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I see the lies, thru your eyes.
The pain, the sorrow don't hide.
Your sorrow, it is stupidity.
Your pain, it is humility.
Don't underestimate, the life you've shown me.
Reality, a mystery, true love there's no integrity.
But we all make mistakes, more then most.
Yet some people, they choose to boast.
Pain is real, heartache eternal.
But sad for some, we are but mortals.
~Adam Matthews

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